A repost from April 2006…enjoy my thoughts in this blast from the past.
I’ve been struggling through a spring cold and wanting so much for wellness so that I can jump into my plans for preparation for my spring garden as well as getting a good jump on getting the house cleaned from top to bottom.
the Lord had other plans for me today! I awoke at 5am with a throbbing in my heel and shooting pains up my leg when I stepped fully on my foot. So I hobbled downstairs, spent some time in the Word, then on the computer, then with my foot elevated on the couch. My mental disorientation from the previous 2 days of the cold had diminished but I was completely unable to keep my eyes open for longer than 1 hour!! I ended up sleeping for 3 1/2 hours, getting almost no housework (of my own…the children still did their chores and a few other tasks) and only 1 school task of the children’s choice done.
But I have to think that if God wants to use HIS day in this way with my body, I guess that is His choice! My problem is that I have to bring myself to the realization that HIS choice is best!! Not always an easy thing for me when I have my own plans and agenda. But it all comes down to ‘whose life am I living anyway?’
When I think about my plans and goals, like losing the 65 pounds I need to lose, getting the yard landscaped nicely, planting a garden, painting various rooms in the house, ripping up the kitchen carpeting and putting down cheap vinyl that will be at least better than carpeting, etc… I have to come to grips with the fact that most of my day is spent in representing Christ to my children in how I deal with them and train them! Will a slim and svelte mother with a beautifully coiffed yard and house be their lasting memory for eternity? OR will my heart filled with joy in the difficult times, a spirit that spontaneously breaks out in thanksgiving in the middle of physical trials, loving laughter, hugs, kisses, enjoying jokes that don’t make all that much sense, listening to stories and plays and plans and hopes – will THESE things last in their memories as a testimony to my life for all eternity?
Well, today was a day for me to take a deep breath and remember what my life is being spent for – and my goal and desire is His glory!
Now, if only I can learn to do this right!!! 😉